Busy, Busy, Busy

Okay so if you're following along, you all know what a crap blogger I am so I'm not even going to apologize (although I am sorry) or make excuses (vacation, unexpected hospitalization of a child).  I am however going to tell you all why my updates seemed to have dried up in the past couple of weeks.

I blame it all on Bronxwench.  Yeah, that's so not her real name but it's her fault all the same.  You see we were chatting the other day and she got it in her head to send me her publisher's information for submissions.  Then she stroked my ego a little and being the big attention whore I am, it worked.  Today I sent in my first submission to a real, honest to god publisher.

I've spent the last couple of weeks editing (why didn't you guys tell me that I use conscience instead of conscious?) and trying to write my first query letter.  I finally got the story spit shined to perfection and wrote the best query letter known to mankind.  Then I stuck it all in an email and cried for ten minutes while holding my finger over the mouse which was hovering over the send button.

Now, I know that if it gets rejected that it will really change nothing because, well, I'll just be right where I am now, right?  That's not so bad, I guess...  Everyone keeps telling me that a rejection is no big deal, it happens to everyone but it's still going to hurt to hear that my book's not good enough.  It's like my baby and nobody wants to hear that they have an ugly baby (mine were all gorgeous by the way).

So that's why I've been slow to update.  I have had little time to write or edit new chapters but that should change now that I've sent my baby off and out into the great wide world.  Cross your fingers for me and send me good thoughts.  I may need some comfort when I get the news so really nice, sweet, ego boosting reviews will be welcomed whole heartedly.